The grand scheme of things

Sometimes, the world feels too strange and too big for me. 

I stare without seeing, I eat without tasting, I listen without hearing, I breath without smelling and I touch without feeling. 

Why are there moments like these in my life? 

 

The color of my life

(my usual place)

I have decided to change my blogs'  color because well,..Blue was getting old. And i'm so bored. Anyway, a friend of mine had dared me to update my blog EVERYDAY until Christmas day. Considering how LAZY I am, I can't exactly say that i'm thrilled! 

So I guess for 12 days you'll be reading a lot of unimportant things in my blog. For today, let me talk about the above picture. 

Yellow, is my name's color. I have been told that when people hear my name, the first color they think of is yellow. I never really understood that theory nor am I even interested to find out. But in a way, you could say that I am attracted to anything colorful. Though my favorite color is blue. Yellow gives me a feeling of being calm and reasonable. 

As you can probably guess, i'd pretty much die without technology. I can't live without any FORM of tech that it's practically insane. I always seem to have the need to check my phone every once in a while. I am not addicted to texting nor to calling. I am just addicted to checking my phone! Whether for messages or missed calls or to listen to mp3's or to just play with it. 

My mac is the most important part of my life. I cannot last a day without going online and checking my messages, gb's, updates or whatever it is that I do. Funny though. For someone always online, I can't seem to update my blogs. My computer pretty much holds all my life secrets. Be it pictures of JE men or my personal write-ups. 

I have a lot of vices. Some are hurtful. (like chocolate) and some, CLEAN. Like water. I drink so much water everyday that I always always feel bloated. But for some reason, I can't stop drinking. I feel dehydrated when I don't drink when I want to drink. It's not a bad obsession. But there are moments when I wonder why I make it so hard for myself. Do you guys even know how many TIMES I go to the bathroom a DAY?! But that glass of water pretty much represents my life. It's not that Empty. But neither is it full. 

I live such a lonely life it's sick.